peeperjj's Journal, 18 Oct 18

Ugh. Way low on protein today and for the week so far. I skipped the protein bar breakfast. I skipped the jerky snack and the shake. 56g that I’ve skipped. Even if I had all that now I would still be under for the day 😳. I had a chicken sandwich for lunch and added 2 oz of ham plus cheese to my soup. I’m just sick of meat lol. Never thought I’d say that but then again I’ve always eaten how I wanted until now. I can see where cutting will become my obsession. Then I’ll say screw it all and gorge on snickers. Hmm. I’m really trying to find a down side now that I see that in writing.

Headaches are driving me insane. Stupid rain and pressure changes. One of the teachers lost one of her boys last night. I don’t know this family that well but just the thought of what they are going through has had my tummy in knots since mid morning. Two of my kids are friends/classmates of two of her other kiddos. I feel like I should take food over. However she is quite thin and I’m unsure of her diet needs. I’d never have thought of this before. I also don’t know where she lives other than the name of the town of her address and she lives in the country. It’s fall break so I don’t even know who I’d call to find out or have someone who knows them deliver it.

Needless to say that I don’t feel like eating much today. Add to all that and my oldest had an echo today. She’s had a VSD since birth and with her starting sports heavily and 2.5-3 hours a day activity I needed to check up on it and make sure it’s nkt worse. Our dr keeps school hours now so I probably won’t know anything until next week. I’m hopeful that it’s healed itself but I’m 90% sure I heard the swoosh sound of it today. Oh the worry...

So I’m gonna force down a shake. Then have a propel water and protein bar. I’d rather have snickers but that’ll just send me into a mindless snack fest while I think about everything else. They really need to make a protein beer 😳. Protein and relaxation in one.. and light too so low cal.

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1384 kcal

Fat: 53.66g | Prot: 69.58g | Carbs: 159.94g.   Breakfast: Folgers Breakfast Blend Coffee with 3 Splenda. Lunch: McDonald's French Fries (Small), McDonald's McChicken (Plain), McDonald's Fruit 'n Yogurt Parfait (without Granola). Dinner: Keebler Zesta Original Saltine Crackers, Hiland Heavy Whipping Cream, Great Value Sharp Cheddar Cheese, Gold Medal All-Purpose Flour, Land O'Lakes Salted Butter, Frick's Honey Ham, Wyler's Chicken Bouillon Cubes, Potatoes (Flesh Without Skin, Without Salt, Boiled) . Snacks/Other: Premier Nutrition High Protein Shake - Caramel, Wonka Runts Candy, Nature's Bounty Hair, Skin, & Nails Gummies, Nature Made Vitamin D3 Adult Gummies, Caltrate 600+D Calcium Supplement. more...

1653 kcal

Exercise: Cooking - 15 minutes, 3PLUS daily activity - 1 hour, Resting - 17 hours and 30 minutes, Sleeping - 5 hours and 15 minutes, Apple Health - 0 minutes. more...