peeperjj's Journal, 12 Dec 18

Any idea as to why I’ve lost almost all of the love handle on my right but only half of my left? 

A few years ago there’s no way I’d have posted this. After FS and the support here I’m confident enough to do so now 😉. Even with my stretch marks, surgery scars and that little bump and indent on my lower tummy. Dr said scar tissue for the hump and loose skin for the indented puckered area. No matter what I do it doesn’t shrink like the rest of my stomach did. Oh and when I flexed I could see faint lines between my abs!! I’ve gained a tiny bit of fat on the tummy lately so to see those indents and feel them was surprising. So not complaining ;). Just can’t figure out the love handle thing though. Dr did take like 1/2 cup off of each side spread out from hip to mid ribs for the last fat grafting. He said I wouldn’t notice a difference. I didn’t the first several weeks but now I can see it changing (surgery was 3 months ago). However the love handles had started losing differently before surgery which is why I asked him to take from there hoping he could even them up some. He took more from the right side (left side of the pic) on the back of my ribs than from anywhere else. He said it was thicker and ‘better’ there? No fat left there as it melted away recently. I go back in another month or so and I’ll try to remember to ask him if the reason is because of the surgery or not. My inner thighs are doing the same though. Left is smooth in its lump of fat and the right has an indent like it’s losing from the middle of the fat. Yeah I’m always the one that does everything the weird way haha. 

I have no idea why it goes from where it does. I can see it on my arms, little pockets where it's gone and where it's not. I guess it just does whatever it likes. 

liberating stuff being happy enough to put up pics of all your hard work. awesome stuff mate 

Same LZ. It’s frustrating, but we can’t change it I guess lol. I keep thinking I’ll ‘diet’ down to 15% BF but that’s a pipe dream I’m afraid. I love food too much and my drs would NOT be happy if I went below 1200. In order to get that low I’d have to work our like crazy. No time this time of year. Something every single day for the kids or family going on. I’m saving that goal for spring and summer. By then maybe I’ll feel like it’s an attainable goal! My right thigh has this small, flat indent right in the middle of the flab. The left is still round lol. I prefer the fatter round thigh! Never thought I’d say that lol.  

Thanks Keith and yes it is! Mainly it’s knowing that I won’t be judged on here. The community here is awesome! I feel like I could post a bikini pic and everyone here would’ve been where I am now or headed that way. I can’t show the people I know because I’m afraid of the reactions and they honestly don’t understand. Most of my family who would even bother to look are old fashioned. This picture would horrify them strictly because I’m showing my tummy and my tummy should only be seen by my husband and doctors lol. They’d be supportive yet not understand. In full disclosure, remember that I’ve had liposuction twice. For a total of about 1-2# taken off my tummy, sides and back of my ribs. He gave most of it back though lol. That’s 1-2 cans of veggies worth of fat. Thankfully I seem to burn a lot of fat healing so by the time they say the swelling will be gone I usually lose a couple more pounds. Not all from the surgical area though. After the last surgery I lost mostly from my arms. Probably because I was lifting at the same time. The first I lost mostly from my outer thighs and hips and I was walking a lot then.