TDX00's Journal, 01 Aug 22

Well here I go again, re-starting my diet for the 1000th time in the last decade. That's a good name for it actually, "The Lost Decade". The period in my life from 25-35-ish years old where I've been too fat, too tired, too unwell, and in too much pain to do anything worthwhile with my life (except getting married and having kids of course!).

After failing so many diets, people in my life suggest that I should try something other than calorie counting as it's evidently not working for me. I mean, they have a point, though the problem isn't with the diet, it's with my self control. Calorie counting absolutely works, and compared to whatever fad diets come and go, CICO by far makes the most logical sense to me. It's Math! It's Science! It's... Python!

caloriesConsumed = 1600
caloriesBurned = 3000
if caloriesConsumed < caloriesBurned:
print("You have lost weight!")

Sorry for the nerdy programming joke. But as always, this journal isn't for you - it's for me. Bully for you if you get something out of it.

Anyways... the problem with CICO has always been my self control - my ability to stick to the diet, and that's the part I need to work hardest on. It's getting it through my thick skull that I fail every diet because I let hunger and desire cloud my better judgement. That's the hard part of dieting for me - fighting through all the bullshit I spin myself whenever life throws a little hardship my way.

Kind of a crap day at work? I'll use that to justify dropping in to KFC on the way home from work at 3pm. I'll log the "Regular Bacon & Cheese Zinger Burger Combo" in the app like a good boy, suffer a sugar-free PepsiMAX, and tell myself "this counts as dinner". But by 11pm I'm starving to death because I haven't eaten anything in 8 hours and can't get to sleep. Then the next excuse becomes, "You've got work in the morning - you NEED to sleep! Just eat something and start fresh tomorrow." By morning I've convinced myself that I may as well make the most of things since I've already screwed up my diet for the week, tell myself the always convincing lie that "I'll start fresh on Monday", and as easy as that, another diet meets its end.

Every so often, such as today, I feel extra motivated to start a diet. I'll open up a fresh new word document and jot down some rules, boundaries, and/or observations that I think will help keep my self control in check over the coming weeks. If I'm going the extra mile, I'll log onto this website and make a journal post too, because I know it helps me to lay everything down in black and white. Well here's the nonsense I've spun to help fuel my next diet. Do with it what you will:

- Set much smaller weight-loss goals - just 10kg at a time.

- Don't let hunger and desire dictate your food choices. Stay strong!

- Don't use hardships as an excuse to break your diet. This ruins your every diet. It only takes one excuse.

- Remember how strict you were during your very first CICO diet experiment all those years ago and how totally effective it was?! Do that again!

- Remember that dieting (like anything) gets easier if you do it for long enough. You can remember times when you thought, "Dieting is easy, why haven't I been doing this all along?"

- Remember how much better you feel about yourself after just a week of successful dieting, regardless of weight loss.

- Every time you think about eating something shitty, make a comparison of importance. Which do you want more?:
- Chocolate or your children?
- Hamburgers or happiness?
- Focaccia or your Family?
- Doughnuts or your dreams?
- Beer or your back?
- Fried Chicken or friends?

Good luck...

View Diet Calendar, 01 August 2022:
1355 kcal Fat: 61.21g | Prot: 51.13g | Carbs: 144.88g.   Lunch: Coles Tomato Sauce, Green Peas (Frozen), Four'n Twenty Meat Pie, Ritz Original Crackers, Portview Mango Chilli Tuna. Dinner: Coles Tomato Sauce, Coles Beer Batter Steakhouse Chips, Steggles Chicken Breast Tenders (Sweet Chilli). more...
2560 kcal Exercise: Google Fit - 24 hours. more...

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Awesome words, and you are so right! Eating well is easy, it's the mind-games that brings the challenge 🤓 
31 Jul 22 by member: spicehorn
try a bit of Keto to kick start the idea of calorie counting...it's working for me 
01 Aug 22 by member: Mozambique
Thanks Mozambique, I've tried it twice over the years and both times I packed on weight dramatically. I even bought the special paper strips you use to check if your body is in ketosis, though I never was even after 2.5 weeks of a super strict keto diet. Not for me apparently. 
01 Aug 22 by member: TDX00
Maybe it’s not the calories or amount you are eating, but the nutritional value. I don’t like lettuce, so substitute spinach. Cut out processed sugar and substitute honey or maple syrup. I also try to be gluten free (my body needs anti-inflammatory food). At first it was hard but then I focussed on what I could eat. I’m not hard out with it, more mindful. Use the app because it’s a handy tool. Good luck 
01 Aug 22 by member: deborah4655
I relate hard! I think my biggest problem has always been failing to plan and just relying on willpower. When you're starving and tired and you have nothing ready to eat willpower is gone. 
01 Aug 22 by member: noteminame
I think a lot of us have been where you have been and really understand how you feel. I almost felt like I was hearing my own voice speaking to me. Have you thought about seeing a counsellor to untangle the emotional aspect of eating for you? Many of us use food for comfort and it needs a lot of retraining our brains to choose other ways to reward ourselves. It is a very slow process and you can relapse but ultimately you can develop healthier ways to interact with food. 
01 Aug 22 by member: Kenji_the_cat
Make a few meals at a time to have later when you don't feel like cooking. YouTube is a really good place to find recipes that will suit your personal taste. I had KFC last night for the first time this year hehe 
02 Aug 22 by member: eLPedro87
ah. great to start again and find what works for you. good luck! 
02 Aug 22 by member: Mozambique
I learned not to be afraid of feeling hungry. I eat at 6pm and go to bed at 2am so that's 8 hours without food, but I cope and sleep ok. good luck to you! 
02 Aug 22 by member: mials11
Well done for taking action. I suffer from lack of control as well and I really struggle. A couple of days doing really well then I lapse back into old habits. Bad food tastes so dam good. Keep reminding yourself you can do it. Mind over matter. Good luck 🤞 
02 Aug 22 by member: DelHarris
Besides meat,,DON"T eat white....seems to works as most foods that are white are super high in complex carbs and sugars. White is a NO......rice, spaghetti,bread, anything with flour or sugar in it....I have found it is quie easy to stay under 1000cals if you just don't eat white..(Pork,chicken and fish excepted as these are great protein and essential fats). 
02 Aug 22 by member: TillyjPhillips

     
 

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