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What the hell lol. I so went over calories yesterday. I have upper respiratory issues and didn’t drink enough water PLUS my dinner was pretty much all carbs. Some protein in pizza but I ate ranch and had calzone with has twice the crust. I expected a 1# gain lol. Knowing my body it’ll come over night because tomorrow morning is my official weekly weigh in lol. The weights from Tues-Sun don’t really matter just keep me on track. Today is another pizza day plus cookies at the party. That’ll make me gain a pound haha.
Throat hurts, I woke up frustrated, kids are making so much noise I couldn’t call myself this morning like usual. I always lay there a few minutes and make myself be positive. I’m NOT a morning person! I always wake up with a headache, body aches and it’s like I’ve had bad dreams all night ever night. But I’ve learned that 10 minutes laying there and I can think about happy things and change my mood. Not this morning! So much running around and noise. So now I’m sipping coffee and avoiding everyone. I know the mood is partly because the child staying over changed the whole party dynamics when she arrived. She changed the party plan taking it from a makeup and nail party to a flashlight hide and seek party. That means shutting off the lights and running screaming through the house. We had to lock doors so they wouldn’t freak out Mr. Snuggles and because when they get in the toy room toys tend to start flying and I end up having to clean a room that’s knee deep in toys and clothes.
This child started teasing my youngest who is 4. Repeatedly calling her name from the top bunk and not saying anything with my baby would say ‘what?’ I found her very upset crying because ‘they’ wouldn’t answer her and just kept calling her name. Both admitted it was the friend and not my middle.
We have a rule that we think of friends first as far as activities. However this child is taking over every aspect of the party and sleepover. I’ve never noticed throw behavior but hubby has I guess. We get to have a family talk this afternoon. My middle is getting hormones. She’s my baby yet has started acting like she hates me. This will cement it. But I won’t have a kid who allows a friend to totally take over then pester a small child. She needs to stick up for family and say ‘hey she’s only 4 and doesn’t understand your just playing around. Why don’t we tell stories instead?’ Or whatever. I did dream of this type of thing al night. My little one slept with me last night and woke up crying this morning. There won’t be anymore sleepovers for quite some time. Hubby says I can’t say anything to this friend. Says my kid will hate me and I’ll upset the parents. If it were reversed I’d hope the parents would tell my hold that her behavior was hurtful and we couldn’t have sleepovers anymore if it keeps happening. Guess I’m not as bitchy and uptight as hubby says lol.
I’ve reached for a candy bar. I’ve reached for a protein bar a few times. So far I’ve just added another Splenda to my coffee. Lunch will be soon. I’ve held out a couple hours and I can hold out an hour half hour. I’m begging to think I just can’t function without stress and somehow my subconscious knows this and puts me in stressful situations. This sleepover should’ve went very smoothly as well as the party. Scheduled things they all love. They had a movie to watch and we allowed popcorn back there when normally we don’t. Then there was talk about eating cookies for my youngest party. Like eating them yesterday saying there should be plenty and she wanted the cookies. Or they could just eat the rest of the cookie cake because I could just go get another for my kids birthday and more cookies for my youngest basketball party today. So I said no, nobody is eating those cookies. Then gave the middle the mom look and explained loudly to hubby that I hoped we had enough cookies because 14 kids with 1-3 sibs and parents and some grandparents could come since its the end of the year party. I got the evil eye from the girls but they left true cookies alone. Ah well, grab another cup of coffee and finish my list of things to discuss with the middle after the sleepover, practice and another party.
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Ahh, the adventures of parenting. :)
09 Dec 18 by member: LZenn
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Lol my day got much worse. Had a talk with the middle after I stood up to her friend and said no I wasn’t changing plans because I had stuff to do. Then for the third week in a row another team came to our practice and took over. My husband misplaced his testicles it seems. I told him I’d handle it and explained to the mom that we had the gym until 5. Explained a second time when she came back to argue. Then peeked our and theybhad a horde of people waiting outside. They marched in and the coach told me they had the gym and got snippy so I got bitchy and told him three times we had it and if prove it but he didn’t want to see my proof (took a picture of the schedule when it was made back in October). Told him to take it up with the PE teacher who did the scheduling because she had told us it was our slot, they were interrupting a Christmas party for 4 year olds and she told us she didn’t have a clue who their team was. He got pissed and started talking to our parents. Told hubby to handle it before I embarrassed us both. He came back and told me to pack up because he gave them the gym. Against the teachers wishes, against my wishes and stopped the party. So I’m livid. Normally a few beer helps but not tonight. He’s now stomping around. Got mad when I reminded him it’s his night to cook. Ignoring me. Won’t answer me, walking away, rolling his eyes and acting like a teenager by shaking around all dramatic saying ‘whatever’ ‘don’t get your way’ etc. I’m so sick of this. All I wanted was the time slot we were promised and to have a nice half hour Christmas party. He said he didn’t want to start a fight on our last practice. Seems he gave them the gym next week for our last practice spot too.
09 Dec 18 by member: peeperjj
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The other coach puffed up to me. Pretty sure he did to hubby too. Hubbys 6’, 272 and lifts 350 on his light bench press days. No idea what his max is anymore but his buddy said he benched 400 two weeks ago. And hubby gave in and told me to deal with it. Now he’s mad because I said fine, I’ve got to go, you clean up and I’ll see you later tonight. Stopped by the house to drop off the party stuff I had and he dropped the kids off and left!! So I couldn’t go hang out with a friend to vent and calm down! Hmmm must get it from his freaking controlling parents who are never wrong and tell is to ‘deal with it’ almost every time we speak to them. He says I’m not standing up for us but rather being a baby. This was before he talked to the PE teacher. He changed his tune when he found out I was right. Now he’s acting like a child throwing himself around. At least he didn’t say I was a rigid controlling crazy bitch this time lol. Counselor says it’s mental and emotional abuse because he tries to get his way by making me think I’m crazy because of the depression. Then that makes depression worse. He says I’m controlling because I won’t give up my diet. I’m compromising by sticking to maintenance and it’s not good enough. She says he feels fat and threatened by my success to lose 30+ in the time he has lost 3#. I think he’s a spoiled child who will throw his wife, kids and team under a bus just so he doesn’t have to say anything and be put out. Am I wrong to want our party? When the teacher told us to have it and not let that team take our time slot? Am I crazy because I needed to leave and go cry because once again he gave in to someone else over me and his kids? Should I have taken over his chores so he could watch tv instead of venting to a friend so I could calm down?
09 Dec 18 by member: peeperjj
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This tells me he will give in to his folks. He’s already told me I need to sign the contract that he got today. I won’t ubtil I’ve read it and maybe take it to a lawyer. I won’t take a chance on losing our house. They’ve already taken income away and our plans. If we get out of farming now there’s a good chance they would come after our house since we can’t pay such a big loan off in one payment in a week. His parents have proven untrustworthy and now he wants me to trust them again without reading the contract. Gonna roll over yet again. My oldest is already asking what’s gonna happen. Will they be at the game. Will they corner her again. She’s gonna lie if they do even though lying is wrong and they’ll know it’s a lie. She knows her dad isn’t going to stand up to them on her behalf for long. Now she blames me again. If I would’ve just insisted they not do all this stuff years ago it would be over. I did insist but I can’t force people to honor our wishes, respect our bondaries and respect us. Omg I’m tired of all this.
09 Dec 18 by member: peeperjj
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