|
And lo n behold, those cups of coffee have caught up with me again ;op Dunno how I can lose 500g overnight, then gain 600g the next night, not doing anything marginally different with my days, but there you have it. Got to admit, screwed up as it is, and somewhere I know it is... I was disappointed to "be back" (over fifty) this morning... And I know that's fucked. I've actually been avoiding looking in the mirror... I'm scared its suddenly gonna be scary skinny or something? The forties has been this dream for so long and to be wavering near, it's like I expected myself to be "worse" than I am? I dunno, I look normal to me.. Yes thin, but not sick, and that's a good thing. I don't want to be sick. I want nicely slim. Now if only this paunch would go away. My top seems to be fading, no boobs, and more ribbier frame (depending how I move/bend etc) but the blubber still sits around the middle heavy... Dunno if that'll ever shift? Sigh. Spent the day with all the kids and mum at the play centre. Phew. Mum nagging me when we were doing the kids tea, "but you haven't eaten anything all day..." (Wasn't hungry bc ritalin does that) anyway, got home & it occurs to me, she didn't bloody eat anything all day either!! (That's how uninterested in food I am, don't care if others are eating either! Just funny she's having a nag... "Sure you're eating?!" Yet she didn't eat a thing in the whole time we were together all day...? Anyway worn off now, so... Dinner time !!
|
50.1 kg
Lost so far: 48.7 kg.
Still to go: 0 kg.
Diet followed: Reasonably Well.
|
Gaining 4.2 kg a Week
|