peeperjj's Journal, 25 Jun 20

I hope it isn't just stress. How are you doing? I think about you so often. 🙏 

I haven’t really been stressed. Everyone around me thinks I’m crazy but it it would’ve been cancer I’m okay with that. Been there, done that, survived it. It’s the unknowns that drive me batty lol. I’m doing good. Got the call a day earlier than expected. Turns out it’s not cancer so we are back to not knowing what it is. The ultrasound nurse said probably infection if she had to guess. No sores or anything on that arm or chest area. Maybe it’s the pimple on that side. Who knows. Just odd because any scratches, pimples etc are closer to other lymph nodes so why is that area working so hard to fight off whatever it is ya know? Maybe because I’ve had 3 of the 20-40 removed and for some reason those two that are enlarged and showed up active on scans have decided it’s their job to make up for the three missing ones. Maybe the others aren’t pulling their weight lol. But no cancer so good news. I won’t be fully relieved until we figure out what it is and what the enhancement was around that implant is. But for now all is well! Thanks for asking :).  

Oh that is good news! I know not complete and with questions, but could anything be so terribly serious? I have zero idea. I will still keep praying. Will they send you to have more tests? See different doctors? When is the heart test thing? How are you wirh working out lately? Feeling OK?  

The nurse reminded me it could be something simple like an infection. Online says it could be lupus or the like but it’s rare. The cardiologist finally called. The one I’m supposed to see can’t see me until September. Another dr in the office can see me in July so I went with him. He will meet me and go over symptoms then see what we need to schedule. Still working out except this week because of the biopsy. I’m finding that it’s worse with any ending over and any leg work. Bench is getting better as long as I lay there for half a minute then get up. Sometimes I have to squat down when I feel faint. Still having hard fast palpitations for no reason sometimes. I think I’ll request and ekg to see how bad the chemo damaged my heart. Plus some sort of stress test so they can mimic the gym symptoms. Beyond that I’ll leave it up to them.  

I am really glad to read the good news about the biopsy ! I also feel worse when i do not know what do i have to deal with. I had palpitations while lifting weights when my hemoglobin was quite low. 

i do think it is amazing how strong you are peeper, and how you can be stress free.  

Dr says we won’t investigate further because it could be caused my my allergies, eczema, inflammation etc. She said we have a very low chance of finding out what it is. I wouldn’t say stress free. I wasn’t stressed about it maybe being cancer. I was stressed a bit about the waiting lol. I’m impatient! I’d have rather gotten everything done in day 2 weeks instead of 4. Anytime I would worry or stress I’d make up my mind it was cancer and go through all the next steps in my head and that calmed me down. I knew what to expect on that case and just wanted to know so we could get started. 😉 Now I think I’ll have to tell myself it’s probably allergies since my seasonal allergies are so bad. But it’s odd that it would swell in my arm pit and not in my neck or chest if it’s just allergies. 🤷‍♀️ My dr didn’t seem worried at all so I guess I won’t worry lol.  

I'm glad you will get to see someone soon than later about the heart. Just knowing things does help. I remember when my heart would flutter and do strange things when I was pregnant. Apparently common, but I didn't know. Anything unknown weighs you down a bit. We will just pray with you that the strange flair of whatever it is with the nodes is nothing. Please do keep us updated. I hope you can feel a bit more relaxed now, even though you had settled what you might expect, it has to be some relief.  

So glad peeper!!! So glad!!!