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Well this is in undies and bra, 12:45pm, fasting, and just done a slog of a pooh (yeah!) so optimum conditions for the lowest possible weight possible I could be at the moment ie not a real one, but my scales say
65kg
42.8 body fat
37.3 tbw - think this is water?
34.5 mus think this is muscle?
And now I'm on the mobile and can't see what I'm writing so that'll have to do.
Changed to the iPad - shits me that you can only type so much on the mobile app then you can't see it or scroll down and then it chops off what you write anyway. I have mint slice and rocky road and crunchie chocolate bar in the house and I'm not going to throw it out, I am going to leave it all hidden in places from the kids, but where I'll see it, so it taunts me, to make my willpower stronger. Maybe I should find those piccys of when I was skinny and be my own thinspo, I dunno if that'd just depress me tho, how far I've fallen. I look at my "weight history" here, and it's not depressing per se, but saddens me a bit, because I was stable, and happy, really actually happy, and not doing anything fucked up to stay there, between 50-55, for such a long time. And I don't know why I dropped. And I don't know why I started gaining. And I do know why the last few weeks I have gained (chocolate) and probably trial stress even though I didn't realise it then. It was my subconscious excuse maybe. I dunno. Ironically my mum, dad, and sister have been doing this 5:2 diet, and mum said I should do it. So I've decided I am going to. You restrict to 500 cals 2 days of the week, and supposedly up to 2000 the other 5days. Or you can do 3:4etc if that works better as long as you don't do more than 2 "fasting" days consecutively. Ironically again, because of this "diet" there is a plethora of "500 calorie" recipes on the web, and they're not being called "pro-ana" which kind of cracks me up considering the whoo-ha there used to be. They've even brought out a recipe book. Sigh. I've called n called n messages, n feeling paranoid bc of yesterday that you're avoiding me :-( I hate Sundays. I always get trapped in my head.
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65 kg
Lost so far: 33.8 kg.
Still to go: 12 kg.
Diet followed: Reasonably Well.
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Losing 11.2 kg a Week
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