triehard's Journal, 09 Apr 24

It is really hard to break addictions. One day of 1,500 calories is a step towards doing that often enough to lose weight. Cutting back to your recommended calories for deficit, even the maximum, *and* not drinking, even if you are not consistent with the deficit yet, even if you haven’t lost weight, must be hard work! You are strong. I know you can make it to a consistent deficit soon enough, if you can do it even just for days, while staying sober for a long time, too! 

thanks. not much weight difference so far and no difference in blood pressure. I was hoping for quicker results but obviously unrealistic. my resting heart rate is lower and I am focusing on the person I want to be.  

I’m struggling too. I had to set my journal to private so I didn’t let anyone down with my constant plans, and literally not sticking to them, and then some more issues with willpower, on literally the same day! I’m praying for anyone dealing with that too. Mental health stuff (whether it’s alcohol addiction or anything else) makes it so hard to even stick to a plan for literally one meal, sometimes. No alcohol addiction here, but very complex stuff…that makes food/not exercising a crutch not to do something worse…and I’m praying for anyone dealing with the same, or addiction, or anything else. We can do it. My journal has to be private so I don’t let anyone down, but…I’ll open it up once this break/burnout is over. 

Hi Laine. I used to keep it private because I was embarrassed . There are so many awesome people on here doing the right thing and sticking to their plan. That’s why I decided to go public with my alcohol consumption this time. By being really honest with others I am also honest with myself. I drank a bottle of wine last night with tea and just finished a pie for lunch. I’m sore, tired and depressed. But it is 24 hrs only. Tonight I will throw myself back into camomile teas and healthy eating. Tomorrow I will start walking again. This last 6 days has been a big improvement on the previous 60 so I will forgive myself this lapse. So forgive yourself too, be kind. You are trying and that is so much better than hopelessness. You are strong. We will get through it. It just might take a couple of shots :) 

Thank you so much! I appreciate it. One day at a time. Or even one second at a time if the addiction/struggle is tough enough…I wish “one second at a time” when it’s the hardest, was an exaggeration. Even if you are in the “one second at a time” phase, it’s not permanent! You can do this.