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Night weight but shit. A month off my bday and I wanted to be 50 for that. Seems unobtainable. I remember last year I was 83 even. If I can be 53 even this next bday that'd be good. 43 of course would have been better but crap at this rate, NOT being 63 will be a fucking achievement! Not impressed. Sounds really pathetic to bitch about such a tiny gain but when you get to this point, you feel every little bit. I think when I was bigger it could go on (or off) in bigger slabs and it took more to notice, even within myself, now I feel it, on my stomach, my waistband of jeans, my back, the "muffin top" etc. it's gross. Even the "roll" that's beginning that wasn't there yesterday (or if it was I didn't see it) I tell you my parents place is dangerous - they just have shit food. Chocolate everywhere, and everything is high fat, or at least mid fat, and no scales, and dunno on edge.. Plus holiday mode.. Recipe for "comfort me give me treats eating" and I knew it and the more I vowed not to the more I did and then thought "fuck it" and did it more... Meh. Tomorrows boxing day so think I'll just do coffee or whatever usual day then salads at dinner and hold out for desserts - sound like a bulimic eh. But someone's bound to think I'm Abbas do have to dispel that one haha. Lost roughly thirty odd kgs since last year so I bloody hope they can tell. Dunno it's only been about another 7 since A's 30th in July so I dunno if that's obvious. And I dunno what to wear. I want to be comfy but wanna look good which is nigh freaking impossible. Wish I was skinnier. Wish I'd met my oak. Wish I was 50.
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59.6 kg
Lost so far: 39.2 kg.
Still to go: 6.6 kg.
Diet followed: Reasonably Well.
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Gaining 1.5 kg a Week
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