wendyeriksen1's Journal, 16 Aug 16

Its all about INTEGRITY

Morning all.
Well, another loss this week. Which is great news - I guess. The thing is, I went over 2000cals on Saturday night when we went out for tea for my daughters birthday. And, I didn't complete all the exercise I said I would. Now some would say that that is fine, life happens, and it does - but I broke my word to you all. And, I broke my word to myself. (This is why we become dis-empowered) You either keep your word, or you don't.

This is what I committed to you all last week.

I will stay under 2000 calories for each day ending Monday night.
I will weigh in Tuesday morning
I will complete 4 x 45 cardio/walking sessions
I will complete 4 x 2k rowing sessions
I will move my bench press inside the home where I can actually use it.
I will schedule these activities into my diary (workability)

So, how do we restore integrity - being our word, having us regain people's trust, have them be able to rely on us? Saying sorry does not restore integrity because there is no commitment behind it, nothing to be accountable for.

1) The first thing to do is to acknowledge the 2 breakdowns.
So, knowing I was going out for tea Saturday night, I didn't track my calories properly on Saturday and when I did add them up Saturday late afternoon, I knew walking out the door that unless I drank water and ate lettuce for the night, I was going to go over. Also, I moved the bench press inside (as I said I would) but because it was nice weather, I took the opportunity to also completely dismantle the "large and very heavy complete home gym / leg press machine" and move that in as well. I then ran out of time to do my 4th treadmill/row yesterday. That was a lot of physical work and probably just as much exercise as a walk/row, BUT... it's not what I said I was going to do. Moving the bench press and doing my stated exercise would have had me keep my word in this area.

2) Have a look at the impact caused by not doing what I said.
So, Saturday night, I had a lovely chicken parma and a small serve of chips/salad. Beautifully cooked. The thing was, I felt guilty eating it - I wasn't free to completely and freely enjoy it because I knew I was going to have to 'fess up' to you guys about not doing what I said I would after my big share about integrity. As for not doing all the exercise, well, I feel like I let myself and you, who are supporting me, down. And justifying it with an excuse like "oh well, It was a lot of work bringing it in so that counts as exercise" doesn't work.

3) Now: Restoring Integrity - goes like this.
What you can count on me for this week, is to complete my goals for the week, and to be my word to you. I will plan my work/routine, and work my plan. ( I am now accountable to you )

So, this week:

I will stay under 2000 calories for each day ending Monday night.
I will weigh in Tuesday morning
I will complete 4 x 45min on treadmill at 5.2Ks (getting faster)
I will complete 4 x 2k rows
I will complete 2 x 10 sit ups (just starting)
I will complete 4 x 10 back stretches (I have a roman chair)
I will complete 2 x 100 step ups (50 per leg)
I will complete 2 x 10 bench press (weight to be determined as just starting)
I will complete 2 x 10 leg press (Weight to be determined as just starting)
I will schedule these activities into my diary (workability)
Bonus: Weather permitting, I would like to complete a walk around Lysterfield Lake in Melbourne's South East- approx 5ks.

Thank you for letting me share with you again. I really hope you see my sharing as a contribution. Writing this down brings my commitment into existence and has me be accountable to you.

Wendy

111 kg Lost so far: 11.6 kg.    Still to go: 21 kg.    Diet followed: Reasonably Well.