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Well it's got to be a new record. I was 56.1 Friday morning, don't know why it hasn't recorded it, but there u go, and here we are, Sunday night, and I'm yes, guess? Can you? How much after two days at the house of gain? Yes? That's right... FOUR KILOS heavier. Holy fuck. Ok so it's a night weight and it will subside a little, but Jesus. I fucking look pregnant/bloated/distended /just plain friggin like I've swallowed a beach ball. It's hideous. It's not too comfy either. Nothing bloody fits either. Seriously, 56.1 to 60.2? Fark. I can't honestly say it felt good either. I felt like the whole time I was slathering calories into myself, like it was all one big endless meal.. No sooner had breakfast finished they were talking about lunch then dinner - they bloody eat like 2hrs after the last meal, ugh. I was so full and stomach so stretched there were times I could have just leant over and vomited un-volunterrily, iykwim? Just cos it was so piled all the way up. Soo gross to be that full. Have a week n 4 days to reverse from now aka "critical point" before weigh in day. I am not going to be weighed and be a) more than last time, or b) not be -obviously- less, obviously means to deviate by at least a kilo, which has to take into account the 500g that her scales auto gain me, so I have to be 1.5kg under what I was last time (58.3) which means I have to be max of 56.7 on my scales to be 57.2 on hers to register within the "yes you've lost, but it's negligible so we won't/can't make a fuss range" but it's also calculated by me, and in my range of "passable."
God. 56.1 - I was almost in the 5s!! The halfway line! I so want some duromine. I just want to kick it up to make these few kgs go. I've binged to freaking hell tonight especially. Maccas, oh my. One burger? Try three, and one of those was a double quarter pounder. PIG OUT. yeah I binged in style. Fridays dinner was three days worth of food, well tonight's must've been a weeks worth, easily. It was all out self hating war. The purity begins again now. Ana rules ones more.
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56.1 kg
Lost so far: 42.7 kg.
Still to go: 3.1 kg.
Diet followed: Reasonably Well.
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Losing 0.5 kg a Week
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