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Well it's been a week of anxiety. Not trying to lose weight, but aware that I am. It's hard to swallow, I'm panicky a lot of the time. I'm not eating a lot. I'm drinking smoothies and iced coffees and milkshakes, it's not that I'm avoiding calories, I'm just struggling to eat solid food, it tastes like cardboard and the mechanism of swallowing it without gagging is hard. Am I pleased to have lost some weight? Sure, because there was some to lose, but this isn't about wanting to lose weight. It's just a side effect of anxiety. I've never had that before. To think Saturday a week ago I was 67.5 four kilos in ten days is a big drop even for me. It won't stay at that rate thankfully, everyone knows the first two are water weight anyway. Di comes back from her cruise today. I'm nervous she will notice and think I'm not eating to lose weight. It's really not that at all. I gave up my eating disorder. This is pretty screwy and I feel a bit crazy but I'm not trying to be sick. I just feel anxious all the time. And I don't know how to make that better.
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63.5 kg
Lost so far: 35.3 kg.
Still to go: 10.5 kg.
Diet followed: Reasonably Well.
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Losing 1.1 kg a Week
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