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I've been feeling very unmotivated lately. I had to cut one of my anti-depressant medications in half because I was about to run out while the Patient Assistance Program was processing my new application. I was just approved in July, but because I am on Medicare, it has to be resubmitted each year. I've been feeling the results of only having HALF my regular dosage of my Rexulti. But, Praise the Lord, yesterday I was approved for this year. Even WITH insurance, that drug is about $400/month, so the only way I can take it is by having the assistance program make it FREE> I'm thankful that I have that for this medication and also for my Trintellix. As long as I'm spilling my guts, I might as well mention that I also take Buprion (Wellbutrin) and Hydroxyzine. This "cocktail" of drugs keeps me on an even keel and helps me to have some motivation. I'll be glad when I can start back taking my full dosage of Rexulti - that's the one that mostly helps me accomplish things.
Some people may think it is a lack of faith for a Christian to take depression medications. If I'm a Christian, shouldn't I be happy all the time? BUT, having my brain chemicals out of whack is no different than a diabetic not be3ing able to produce enough insulin. God sometimes choses to heal people completely, and sometimes He works through the doctors and medications that He has made available to us. I'm behind Door #2.
Still coasting along. I'm getting very close to that 250 mark, though. My highest weight has been 302 - until I had gastric bypass surgery 15-16 years ago. I lost 100 pounds and kept the weight off for about 8 years before I started putting it back on again. Since then, it has been a roller coaster ride of ups and downs with my weight.
Paul said, "I have learned in whatsoever state I am therewith to be content." That's a challenging one for me. When I am overweight, it is hard for me to be content. But, God loves me no matter what I weigh.
Still, I'm praying that He will take the reins and give me the motivation I need to take better care of the temple of my body.
Just my musings for the day.
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