TDX00's Journal, 15 Dec 22

I hear you! every time I get under 80 I swear to myself I won't ever get over that again, and yet 6 months later I'm weighing in at 88. I started this app 6 years ago, lose it, celebrate and relax, put it back on. vicious cycle. but it's getting harder to lose it every time.  

it is a life journey, 2005 I was in palliative care and 38kg, ..cancer.. went into remission, and doctors had me on some sort of steroids to bulk me up, up more they said, when i got up to 50kg I said stop with the drugs that's enough...no, they said if you take another nose dive you cant afford to loose 30kg if you are only 50...so up up I went...up up and my appetite was huge by the time they said, that's enough stop..well by then i was used to stuffing myself with cream sponges etc, and being a food lover, here I am at the heaviest I have ever been..so yes the old me when I hit 70 then 80 just kept going slowly up and over the 17 years till now at 93.5 when I started this in November, so you can never slack off, it is a life time commitment, so hopefully at 70 years old I have finally learnt this lesson 

you sound like the ideal weightloss coach I'll need if I go off track. lol We have a brilliant community lot here to support and understand each other. glad you are still at it and not given up.🥰  

Thanks for the comments guys, they're very often the highlight of my day! Well, unless they're about cancer, that's kind of a bummer. I lost my wonderful mum to Acute myeloid leukemia (AML) in 2017 after something like a 10-year battle. She was only 58. It still kills me that she never got to meet her grandchildren - that would have been her nirvana. Within the letter she wrote me the week she died, she wished I would get my weight under control so that I didn't end up with the same health problems as my Dad (who was 280kg at one point). Kinda hard to give a shit about dieting after losing your mum, but I'm now finally starting to successfully get on top of it. @flossyflu, 30kg is crazy! Way to go kicking cancer's arse! Even though you're not at the weight you want to be right now, it's wonderful that you're still making the effort to do something about it. I know so many people around your age who have just given up on their health, as though they think it's too late to bother changing. 

Watching your mum with her 10year battle, probably contributed to your weight (solace in food at such a stressful time for you and your family), the harmful drugs we have to put into our bodies to fight this dreaded disease, also contribute to AML, I am so sorry for your loss, but be assured she is proud of you, and your achievements and looking down with joy at her grandchildren, and thank you for your kind words <3  

Sage advice... and so eloquently delivered 😀 I have not thought ahead to the maintenance stage of my journey yet, but I'm old enough now to know that life really is a journey not a destination... Thanks for the 'no frills' reminder 👍 Look at all the wisdom you have now that you didn't have then...