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I went to Sushi last night and avoided rice (keto diet) but when I got home I went overboard on sweet keto treat and had around 1700 cals (usually 1300) and 27grams carbs (usually under 10 to sometimes 20) and bam ... 1 kg gain overnight. a couple of things I wanted to document for myself is that I let my Eating Disorder (which I refer to as ED) for binging win last night. 95% of the time I win against ED but it's still a daily struggle. some days ED feels more powerful than me. What I want to remember is how I felt laying in bed last night which was dissapointed in myself. I usually feel quite proud which in itself is quite addictive. Last night I was also taking my disappointment and frustrations of my lack of control out on my family which is not fair. It makes me worry that if I Just let loose a little that I'll pile this weight back on so fast that I'll be back to where I started from in no time. This scared the shit out of me. why is it so hard to get the weight off but so very easy for it to come back? I'm not going to let that get into my head and repeat last night. Today I want my proud self to win over ED today so here goes ....
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64.6 kg
Lost so far: 33.1 kg.
Still to go: 0 kg.
Diet followed: Reasonably Well.
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View Diet Calendar, 19 September 2020:
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1257 kcal
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Fat: 74.82g | Prot: 123.74g | Carbs: 14.72g.
Lunch: Egg (Whole) , Woolworths Beef Mince Premium. Dinner: Kewpie Mayonnaise , Egg (Whole) , Woolworths Beef & Pork Sausages Italian Style . Snacks/Other: Danone YoPRO Salted Caramel . more...
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Gaining 2.3 kg a Week
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Don’t beat yourself up. This will always be a win, loss game. You just have to accept that you had a loss, pick yourself up and get back on that horse again!! In the big picture, it’s only a little gain. Remember the end goal. You are doing great 👍
18 Sep 20 by member: Fionacleeland
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It’s impossible to gain 1 kg fat over night , unless the fat blubbers were throwing it at you .. it’s water retention !
You’r allowed a cheat day , I agree with Fiona 💕
18 Sep 20 by member: Lillan4
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Thanks for taking the time to send me some strength. Its just a constant battle with me. If I'm not dieting, I'm an out of control eater. I really hope I can change my ways this time around. It just worries me when I see old patterns re-emerge after so long. Today I've stuck to plan so far. So feeling mentally stronger. Thanks again xxx
19 Sep 20 by member: aras78
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I understand how that feels. I go through the same thing, but you definitely didn't gain 1kg over night, it's likely just bloat and food weight. 1700 calories and 25 grams of carbs really isn't bad at all :) I wouldn't even call it a binge. Just a more relaxed day, or a break :) which is fine to do
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Stop looking at food as good or bad, instead try looking at it as optmal or less optimal. Sounds like you are using diet and perhaps exercise as tools of punishment, one day you will stop beating yourself up over food and decide to "forgive" yourself. This will lead to binging and start the diet cycle all over again. Instead eat on feel if you're hungry then eat, if you are full then stop eating. This takes a bit of practice. Learn to use diet and exercise as tools of care instead of punishment and nourish your body with food you know will make you feel good. This will then lead to self love. Best of luck 🤞
20 Sep 20 by member: seanfanning
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Thanks all, I've read your words a few times over and they all help! Today was a much better day. When I say "binge" its not as bad as what it used to be but I definately feel out of control which scares me that I'm repeating old behaviours. I Just have to concentrate on food not being entertainment or comfort, it's fuel. Ive had a much better day and am in a clearer head space. This getting healthy thing is not just a physical journey, its a mental one too. Xxx
20 Sep 20 by member: aras78
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