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01 July 2019

"So, take a deep breath, pick yourself up, dust yourself off and start all over again" - Frank Sinatra

I read another interesting quote while searching for the one above. It said "I asked my friend what to do, and she said "wash your hair" and I thought that was weird, but I did it. It helped, washing it all off and starting over again fresh" and I thought that was neat, because its true, I always feel better after a shower and a good washing. Its like all the troubles, stress, overwhelming things have been washed down the drain with the soap and muck from the day. That is why I always shower at night, not in the morning. I just wish that I could keep that feeling alive, the muck washed all and a fresh start. Unfortunately, I tend to stress out about stuff and just allow all of that back in. I need to work on that!

On another note...I lost 6lbs!!!!! I know that it was a lot of water weight, but thats 6lbs gone, and that is enough for me!! I also know that it helps me when I take the time to log my intake and see what I am putting into my body. I need that accountability or I go crazy and eat WAY too much!!

It helps too that I spent the weekend in the pool. I am sun burnt, but I am happy about it. It will turn to a lovely tan in a few days. It feels so nice to get out and do something, I love walking with my pup, but she pulls and isnt great on a leash just yet, so it gets frustrating. But being in the water, I love it. I love the feeling of the whole world melting away as I slip under and the feeling of weightlessness while I glide through. Water is my happy place, and I feel so blessed to be in a place where I can go swimming. Though during the week, the pool fills with all the complex kids, so its harder to swim, but I am going to try to do it at least 2-3 times a week. That should help me with some of this lymphatic weight I am holding in my legs as well.

Today I will rejoice and thank God for the blessings that He has given me. I will praise Him for my strength and willpower. I will give thanks for all the weight that I have already lost and the weight that I am currently losing. I will thank Him for my health, my family and my friends (all of you) and I will ask Him to continue to watch over and protect us all. I will pray for healing, deliverance, and strength. I praise His holy name!! In the Lord's beautiful name, Amen!!

I hope you all have a glorious day!! Even being at work, and not in the pool, I am going to try to have a fabulous day. I know that it is all about attitude and how I process my emotions and feelings. I will do my best to have the kind of day that I want to have. I hope you all do the same! Love each other, support each other, and most of all..love who you are at whatever stage you may be at, because you are the only one who matters. **Hugs to you all**

Weight:	Lost so far:	Still to go:	Diet followed:
168.1 kg	61.0 kg	54.7 kg	100%

(1 comment) Losing 3.8 kg a Week

29 June 2019

This is my happy place. I love the water, and am so lucky to live in a complex with a pool. Im going to start going every chance I get!!! Hope you are all having an amazing day!!

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28 June 2019

There is no substitute for hard work. Never give up. Never stop believing. Never stop fighting. - Hope Hicks

Here I am again, day one of getting myself back on track. I have been here before, and I cannot promise I wont be here again, but right now...I will do my best not to be here again.

I am taking the right steps on that mountain. I fell down the hill a little, but no so much that I cannot see the top. Its there, and I am focused on it. Detours come and go, but the top of the mountain is where I belong and I will make it.

Its a matter of taking my food choices and my lifestyle into my own hands. Stop relying on what I think I know/knew, and doing what is best for me and my body. Plus, I need to start working out. I am so lazy!!! I will get there, I will get to the top...but I have to be willing to make the climb. I am ready. I am going to make the climb. Today, I start again and I will not fail.

Today I will praise the Lord for a new day, a new chance, and a new me. I will thank Him for the realization that I am weak and cannot do this on my own. I will give thanks for the people on my side, the ones who cheer me on. I will pray for those who struggle, like I do, and pray we find strength together. I will pray that we all rise above temptation, above the feelings of failure and above the negative thoughts. Rise up on His shoulders and know, without a doubt, that through Christ, ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE!!! In Jesus name, Amen!!!

I hope you all have a great day, a productive and wonderful day!! Be kind to to each other, be stronger than the temptations, be courageous and face every obstacle with the attitude that a stumble is nothing to be ashamed of...get up, brush off, and keep going!!! Love you all!!!

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27 June 2019

Shame is the most powerful, master emotion. It's the fear that we're not good enough. - Brene Brown

I am ashamed of myself, I am embarassed to post here. Its been months, and as you can see, I let myself go. I am so mad at myself. I am mad that I know what to do, how to do it, and I have allowed myself to forget these things. I am mad that I havent logged my food in months, I am mad that I havent journaled and kept up with everyone here for months. I am mad that I made a promise to myself, my family, and you all that I would be strong and I would make this time work and I have failed miserably.

Here is the thing though, I can cry about it, whine about it, and let it take me back to 505lbs, or I can get off my @$$ and get to work. That is what I am choosing to do. I am going to get to work. I am picking my pathetic self up, off of the floor, covered in powedered donut and old french fries and I am saying "No more!! This is it! You do it, and you do it right." and I am starting over. I am working hard, and getting myself back on track. Is it harder this time around, you had better believe it! But I am goint to do it, because I need to. I need to for myself, for my family, and for those of you here who believed in me. When I was struggling, crying and hating myself, you believed in me. I owe it to you. So here I am, asking you to believe in me again. Believe that I can do it, and hold me accountable. My personal email address is Klynnstowell(at)gmail(dot)com. Email me there, if you dont see me for a couple days, ask me why I am not around. I almost want to post my phone number for you to call me and text the hell out of me and ask me where I am. Keep me accountable to myself, and to you.

On a brighter note, my puppy is 5 months old, and a rambunctious ball of annoying! We had a trainer, he was GREAT, but he had to move and (as you can see with my weight loss) if I am not held accountable, I let things slip. She lost some of the training we worked hard for, so I am starting from scratch. I am re-teching her to be a good girl. I love her to death, but she is a handful. I walk her around my complex and the roads by my apartment and she tugs and pulls and tries to run away. Its hard on me, but I am working on it. She just needs to learn how to walk better. I want to get to a weight where I can run with her, but at the rate Im going, she will be an old lady before I get there!! Ugg!!! I am so mad at me still!!

Today I pray for strength of mind and strength of body. I pray for persistence and help to keep on track and do what needs to be done. I pray that the Lord give us all a renewed hope and renewed joy in life. Pour out blessings and healing to those who need it. I praise the Lord for how far I have already come, and cry out for help getting even farther. I pray for the strength to stand bck up and face my obstacles head on, and overcome them. In all things, I give you glory and praise. In Jesus name, Amen!!

I hope you are all doing well, please let me know whats been going on in your lives. Feel free to email me, tell me about your life, your secrets to staying accountable, and the things you rely on most to keep you going throughout the day. I love you all, and wish you the absolute best!!

Weight:	Lost so far:	Still to go:	Diet followed:
170.3 kg	58.8 kg	56.9 kg	Poorly

(16 comments) Gaining 1.4 kg a Week

03 May 2019

There are times I get so discouraged, then my sister sends me pictures like this. This is 3/23/18 on the left and 4/23/19 on the right. Even when I feel terrible, I can be proud of how far I have come. Thank you all for being my support and lifting me up.

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