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29 March 2019

I'm not happy. I'm tired. I'm angry. I'm sick of trying so hard and getting nowhere. I feel like just eating whatever I want. I feel like it doesnt matter anyway, no matter what I do I keep gaining. I'm so frustrated right now.

Weight:	Lost so far:	Still to go:	Diet followed:
156.3 kg	72.8 kg	42.9 kg	Reasonably Well

(45 comments) Gaining 1.2 kg a Week

25 March 2019

Good evening everyone!! Man, I am tired!! My sister went out of town so my husband agreed to watch Garrett, my nephew, today and my brother brought him over at 5:30 this morning! I feel like I have been awake forever!! I still havent even made dinner yet!

My chili turned out better than expected, we ate the whole pot! It was a white chicken chili and I didnt use beans, just the chili packet, chicken, onion, garlic, bell pepper, and zucchini. It was truly delicious. Tonight I am making simple bacon and eggs. I love breakfast for dinner!! I love that my husband loves it too!!

I think I mentioned it, but he is thinking about doing keto once the junk food in the house has been eaten and I am super exited because that means I wont be alone. He wont be eating pasta while I am making zoodles. Though he has been really good about it, he will eat cauliflower rice and zoodles if I tell him I dont feel like doing both. He is low carb right now, only because I make dinner and I dont eat carbs. He drinks soda and sugary creamers in his coffee though, so that spikes his carbs from the get go. I am going to try to see if he will give up the creamers, at least, but we shall see. I mean, for the most part, if it wasnt for the creamer and soda, he would be on keto.

Aurora is walking further now that she is getting more comfortable here. Its super exciting because she was just going to the yard and then running back in, but today we explored. I hate that she wants to chew everything and eat everything, but thats just part of having a puppy. I am working with her, shes getting better. I did the math the other day and if she lives 15yrs, I will have her until I am 52, so she will probably be my last dog. I want her to be a good girl, so we are working hard with her. I love her, already, and she tries really hard.

Work was pretty sucky today, but overall, it was a good day. I hate living in the negative, so I am trying to be more positive about things. I laughed today, and I lived through the day, so far...that must mean its a good day. I didnt weigh myself this morning, so I dont know if the weekend hurt me at all, but I doubt it did. I will step on the scale tomorrow and see what the damage is. Im crossing my fingers for a drop, but Saturday night I drank some wine coolers with some friends and I know that those are nothing but sugar, so I dont know. I almost ordered pizza for dinner tonight, but I knew that I couldnt do that to myself. Its self sabotage, and I cannot allow myself to keep doing it. I am going to work hard, be better, and make it to my goals! I know that I can do it! I just need to keep my head in the game!! The bacon and eggs tonight will help! haha.

I pray for each and every individual here, I pray that we see our goals come into reach and that all our hard work pays off. I pray for strength, mental and physical. I pray that our minds and bodies are healed. I pray that we surrender all the things that held us back and we rely on you, Father, and each other to get through the day. I pray that we find love, support, acceptance and favor in all we do! I pray for everyone here, believer or non-believer, that they reach their goals and their bodies are stronger than ever! In your holy name, Amen!!

I hope that you all have a wonderful rest of your evening. Dont let the late night munchies get the best of you!! Sending you all my hugs and well wishes!

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24 March 2019

You build on failure. You use it as a stepping stone. Close the door on the past. You don't try to forget the mistakes, but you don't dwell on it. You don't let it have any of your energy, or any of your time, or any of your space. - Johnny Cash

Good afternoon everyone! I hope you are all having a wonderful Sunday! I have had a nice relaxing day. I actually finished a book this morning, granted, it was a small book, but it was a book none the less. I havent really had to do much, I ran to the store, put on dinner and took the dog out, but overall its been a really nice do nothing kind of day.

I put on a pot of white chicken chili. I added onion, bell pepper and garlic. About an hour before I want to serve it, I will add 2 zucchinis. I am excited. I also have some left over keto cheddar biscuits from last nights dinner, so I will serve those with it. And then maybe another slice of the cheesecake, it was wonderful!! I am so happy to have found something that tastes enough like the real thing to easily substitute. I am going to serve the chili with sour cream and cheese. Gotta get my fat in there! lol

I feel good, I think that I just needed a day to think and get myself in order. My living room is coming together, and its not a mess and that makes me feel a lot better and I am going to make time for me. I need to talk to my husband about making sure that I have some time in the evening to do things for me. I cannot always be doing for everyone else and forget the things that I love. I love writing here, I love reading what you all have to say and I love being able to support and inspire people. It motivates me to be able to motivate others.

This site isnt that "user friendly" on the app. I hate it, I use the app to log my food, but I hate trying to journal on there or do anything more than post a picture or log food. Also, has anyone noticed that you cannot go back and read peoples journals on the site anymore? If you go to their member profile, it used to be on the left side, but its no longer there. I dont know if everyone I know has put their journal on private or they have changed the site and made it no longer visible, but I dont like it. I miss things, because I am not around often, and I want to go back and read what people have said and I cannot get to it. It makes me unhappy.

So on Friday I was able to write a story like I wanted. I was hoping that it would wake up the part of me that is in the middle of writing a novel, but that part isnt ready yet, apparently, haha. I have always wanted to be a writer, and while that is not the most lucrative career anymore, it would still be something that I would love to do in my spare time. If I made a little money at it, all the better. If anyone here owns a publishing company, let me know! lol

I pray that the Lord finds us all in a good place, mentally, so we can all get to a better place physically. I pray that he helps us make the right choices and do the things that we know we are supposed to do. I pray that he heals the hurts, the disappointments and the hardships that we are facing. I pray peace over us all. I pray that we turn to him and to each other when we need support and love and that we do not fall into old habits. I pray healing. In Jesus precious name, Amen!!

I hope you all get a chance to spread love today. I know that sometimes its hard, but always love.

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23 March 2019

Made a couple keto-friendly cheesecakes today. 5g of carbs per slice. I have some strawberries macerating in swerve to put on top. I am super excited. Having my own place and being able to experiment with new things makes me so happy.

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23 March 2019

I need to be more accountable to myself and all of you. I knew I gained, but I didnt want to admit it. I was going to wait to weigh in again until I was below 336, but I am cheating myself by not holding myself accountable.

I am going to start weighing in every Friday again. If I dont, yell at me. I need to be pushed harder. I am allowing myself to get lackadaisical in my life and I cant do that and get to my goals. I've lost so much already and I want to get to my goal. I wanted to get to 180, but I'd be happy at 200-210. I just want to get there.

I got a pot of green beans on with salt pork, onions, garlic and chicken broth. I'm going to roast a pork loin with cajun seasoning and make some sauteed cabbage. We are having friends over tonight and I'm going to do a full keto meal to stick to my goals. I'm going to start being just as dedicated as I was this time last year. I need it. For me, for David, for Garrett and my family.

Lord, I humbly come before you a weak human. I need you, I need your help. I pray you lift me from my rut, put me back on the right path. Pick me up, dust me off and help me keep going. Lord you brought these people into my life and I have taken that for granted, I pray you help me appreciate them and their support and friendship more. I pray for guidance and strength in my journey. I know how to get there, so please help me keep on the path. In your holy name, Amen.

I appreciate all the love and support you all have given me. Sending you all my love and prayers. I hope you all know how much I love and appreciate you all!! Let's get this!! We are stronger together!!

Weight:	Lost so far:	Still to go:	Diet followed:
155.3 kg	73.8 kg	41.9 kg	Reasonably Well

(9 comments) Gaining 0.4 kg a Week

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