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Yesterday was the most stressful day at work I've had in years for reasons I won't go into here. I ran on adrenaline and water. I had no chance for any type of break other than a 2 min walk-and-vape. I ate nothing as I had no time, but also no appetite. Then on the drive home, the thoughts of stopping at the supermarket to get myself "a treat" started. The idea of a "reward" for my hard day. I "deserve" something that tastes nice, because that feels good.
I recognised this for what it was, as I'd spent the morning (before SHTF) talking about this concept: the part of self that is very convincing and persuasive, and often very loud, that wins the argument when it comes to addictive/harmful behaviours. The devil on the shoulder is what one of my clients called it. I call it the intenal war.
And I'd spoken with my clients about coming up with rebuttals in preparation for their next battle in that war. An example is "I deserve a healthy and fulfilling life".
So in my car, on the way home, I argued with that part of self. I thought about my progress so far, and my progress still to go. I thought that I deserve to feel confident in my own body. I deserve to wear clothes that express my personal style. I can treat myself to delicious soup, and an early night.
And I won this battle. I went straight home, ate my soup, watched tv and consciously didn't snack, then I went to bed.
I've woken up feeling proud and powerful. The scales show a drop, but most of that will be that i did not eat properly, and I'll likely see a bounce up tomorrow. But i don't care. Because I WON💪💚
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81.3 kg
Lost so far: 6.4 kg.
Still to go: 23.6 kg.
Diet followed: Reasonably Well.
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206 kcal
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Fat: 10.68g | Prot: 5.97g | Carbs: 23.33g.
Lunch: Blueberries , Coles Smooth Peanut Butter, Pink Lady Apples. more...
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Losing 3.5 kg a Week
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